Goodbye

Today a friend of mine is being laid to rest.  We lost contact over the last several years, but just because you lose contact with someone it doesn't mean you completely forget them.  He was just unforgettable.  I have so many memories with him that I will never forget.  And I could share them with everyone, but I think I'll just keep them in my heart.  Just for me to remember.  I do have one that is one of my favorites.  It was my birthday.  I was in 9th grade.  I didn't have anything planned at all and really just wanted to go spend my bday money.  Zack asked me if he could go with me so that I would have at least one person with me on that day.  We went to the mall and shopped together.  It was really nice having a really good friend with me, who I cared about so much.  It was fun and he was funny as usual.  He asked me if we should hold hands while walking through the mall since ya know..everyone else was doing it.  So we did. He was such a silly person.  Made me laugh every single day.  He was my best friend at one point.  Just that.  For two years Zack and I were really close.  We didn't hang out with many of the same people.  We had told each other how we felt about each other, but also the deep friendship we had that we didn't want to ruin in any way.  We told each other so much.  And I miss that.  Towards the end of 10th  grade we had a falling out.  And didn't speak to each other much.  And it did hurt because he was what I considered my Best guy friend.  The last time I talked to Zack was December of 2010.  I was up late on FB and he chatted me.  I had fell asleep at my keyboard and woke up 5 minutes after he sent me the chat and was surprised that it was him chatting me.  It had been 3 or so years since we last spoke to each other.  He said he was seeing what was up and how I had been and that he knew I fell asleep at the keyboard...he made me laugh.  I still have the message at it makes me sad to look at.    So many people that I went to school with have passed away since I left school.  And I didn't know many of them, but this one hit hard.  I'm so glad that I knew Zack.  That I actually knew him and spent time with him.  So Zack..I just want to say.  I love you.  I will never forget you.  All of my memories of You are locked away in my heart and will stay there until I'm gone.  You were an amazing musician, more so an amazing friend.  So so soooo many people are mourning you today.  I hope wherever you are, that you are truly like trullllly happy.  R.I.P Zack

Monday's Music

I have had this song stuck in my Noggin alllll day!  And now it's time to get it stuck in yours!

Deal Me In show last night at The Smith7 House..it was amazing.  I like house shows because it's much more of an intimate setting.  I wish is was closer to midtown though.  The Buzz about these dudes is pretty cool.  I'm a proud girl! 

Way Back Wednesday

I really have no clue what made this pop into my head.  Out of nowhere though, a memory from when I was 7 playing this board game with my sisters.  And it made me feel nostalgic, so I'm doing a "Way Back Wednesday"...for things of nostalgia! 

My oldest sister had this game.  When I was little I didn't know it wasn't real.  I mostly liked just asking Zandar questions and forgot about the game, but it was awesome!

My brother had this one, I thought the commercial was so cool.  

It took me a while to actually see something, but once I figured it out I loooved these books 

 I loved my popples.  I wish I still had some

Garbage Pail Kids! 

 My favourite!  I remember playing this with my older brother David and he one..it was cool seeing him in all the jewels and crown.  I miss those days

I had one for every holliday, occasion, I just had tons of these...it's pretty bad that as punishment for doing something bad, my dad would take my trolls away. hahaha 

My brother David got me into pogs.  He gave me my first one made from metal i think.

My sister just reminded me of this one!  Mannn it was so fun!

Oh.. and I looooved this!

words can't express how much I loved this game!

Ok, so theres my nostalgic moment.  Haha.  What do you miss about your younger years?

Done and Done!

I've given up trying to be nice and befriend people.  It sucks when all you want is some kind of acknowledgment, but instead you get hard stares, strange looks, or just nothing at all.  I smile at everyone.  Thats my way of saying Hey...but I guess it's not as good as actually speaking it.  But I'd rather just smile then say hey and get nothing in return.  It mostly sucks because it's like the people I want to like me are the ones I think don't.  It's stupid to fret about I know... but something about it bugs me.  And I'm not letting it bother me anymore.  So from now on...a smile is what you'll get and if nothing is done in return, then no longer will I smile!  Yes, I do know that when I go places I seem a little stand-offish.  That's just me.  Awkward, social anxiety, shy, blahblahblah.  I do love meeting new people..just the process of actually doing it is the hard thing.  It's hard for me to just speak up when I have no clue what to say.  Everytime I go out, everyone around me is having different mini conversations about random things, or what they did the other day, or some crazy thing so and so did last night.  I never really have anything to add.  But anyhow I do stay quiet and stand off and I prefer to be comfortable then make my self completely UNcomfortable just to make everyone happy.  I probably complain about this too much.  But Hey I listen to other peoples problems, and bitching, and complaining...and you have a choice to read this blog.  Hopefully you are though.  Enough of that now.

Show last night at Escape Alley...it was really fun!  I had a good time.  It was like going back to highschool though.  Or to the mall like 4 years ago with all the "scene-kids" that stood outside of hot topic.  DMI did a really really good job and I think the kids standing around didn't really know how to take it... I guess it wasn't "scream-o" enough for them... but hey the second band covered that.  Im all for local music but I like being able to understand it and not just hear some guy screaming his guts out...My ears aren't what they used to be.  And if something isn't catchy to me... then it just isn't.  I'm tired of people getting attitudes or saying shit because I don't like every local band around.  Music is not my obsession.  Or my life.  But I do love it.  Just not all of it.  And just because the band is a touring local band or just a local local band does NOT mean everyone has to like them.  Honestly I think Deal Me In is THE only local band I like.  Just haven't really found any others that play music I like.  Getting older a lot of my tastes in music are changing big time.  I can't do the whole screaming rather than singing thing much anymore.  I like more instruments.  I'm getting older..things are changing...I want things to change...this is how it's supposed to happen right?  The older you get anyhow.  I dunno.  I feel like I still do a lot of childish or teenage things and I am about to be 24 years old.... Can't really say things though because some people take offense.  

Oh... and Timmy and I.... we are going to be together for a very very long time.  Anyone who doesn't like it can get over it.  I'm not going anywhere and neither is he.  Anyone who tries to get into our business just needs to back the eff up.  And go on somewhere.

 Getting into the Christmas spirit...Here are my favourite Christmas things today!!!

Deal Me In has new shirts and a limited amount of numbered cassette tapes available today...if you go to the show at Escape Alley you can get a shirt and a tape for 10 bucks!  Awesome deal and You should totally do it!

I have so much to vent about... so why not do it here!  Firstly.. DMI had an amazing show last night...Had to throw that out there... I just really, reallllllllllllllllllly dislike Murphys.  It's not really my thing.  Not my favorite place to be.  Especially because shows on a tuesday night...Who does that and why.... Not many people are going to come out to a show on a tuesday freakin night.  And then to say it's going to start at a certain time and then change it last, literally last second, because people aren't showing up. Seems like that happens everytime they play murphy's and it's lame..super super LAME!    IT'S COLD, PEOPLE WORK DURING THE FREAKING WEEK, AND IT'S A TUESDAY NIGHT! Give me a break.  Also.. I really cannot stand disrespectful girls.  At all.  That's why I've never really gotten along with girls.  Maybe a handful but so many are ruthless and coniving and disrespectful.  One in particular...go away.  Thats what I have to say.  Go The EFF away.  Stop lurking around like a lost stupid puppy and go away.  It's annoying.  Oh..man I used to think like if someone didn't like me, well I would be really nice to that person ya know to show that I am a nice person... well doing that I have hopes of maybe the person being nice back but no... not everyone thinks like that and dont care if you are nice...so I'm not going to care about being nice to people that don't like me...why? because I don't give anyone a reason to not like me.  So if you are going to be that person...why not just say so and get on with it.  I will no longer be the super sweet girl who's always quiet and nice...not saying I'm going to be loud and mean... just going to treat people the way they treat me from now on.  Another thing... I cannot stand when people only take themselves into consideration.  Listen to other people..important people.. don't just brush what they say off.  And take the things they have to get done or have to do into mind.  Oh..someone made a smart ass comment that I don't let Timmy do things.  Ha...hahahhahahahahahahahaha.  it makes me laugh.  If he wants to go somewhere, he will go.  I encourage it.  Only thing is that people don't really realize.  He works a real job.  A really hard job that he busts his back doing.  When he comes home.. he likes to relax.  He doesn't always like going out to this place or that place to hang out with so and so....he's super tired and  just wants to lay down.  So if I see that he's hurting, I'll give him medicine and ask him if he wants to do anything or just rest.  And HE chooses. NOT ME.  So keep your little comments to yourself.  Gahhh.. people these days.  You think you have some friends out there... and some turn into tools.  I'm over it though.  I will stick with the good ones I have.  Anyhow weekend is coming up.  It just snowed and it's already melting.  Good though.  DMI has a show friday night but I'm not sure if I'm going to attend this one.  I mostly go to support Timmy, I think I've outgrown going for the heck of it.  I'm not getting any younger so I might as well start being more adult about things.  But since it's super cold I see a weekend at home with my love and some warm blankets, our girl gary, our lovely french accordian vinyl, and netflix.  Sounds perfect to me! :]

--- On another note.  I am so over ecstatic for my bff Kayla!!!!  I'm so glad you are so happy right now!  And I'm so happy you found someone who is perfect for you!!