Question....

We are all entitled to our own opinions right?  Sometimes I don't feel that way because if you have your own opinion about certain things than you are automatically wrong if it's not a shared opinion with someone who disagrees with you.  I have started to not care at allllllll what people think about my opinions.  I've heard talks about something going on concerning abortion and birth control and how people should be pro-choice because if you don't want the kid or get raped then you should be able to get rid of it.   Honestly...if its not rape then keep your legs closed.  If you wanna sleep around and get pregnant and then decide you don't want to ruin your party life and have a kid because then you can't go and get wasted at a bar of fuck a bunch of dudes then fuuuuuck you! Or if you get knocked up and hey realize you can't afford a baby...keeeeep youuuurrr legsssss clooooosssseeeddd... It's really not that hard.  Wear protection.  You can easily carry that child and give it to someone who deserves a child, someone who wants it.  If you get raped...then yeah I know that must be completely and utterly awful to happen to anyone, but it's not the childs fault.  They didn't ask for that to happen.  Again give it up for adoption... whoever adopts the child will pay for everything.  I myself say yeah be what you want... but seriously... why kill something you can give up.. if you don't want it that bad?  I did used to be all "pro-choice" do what you want... but then I actually stopped and thought about it.  Like forreal and it kind of disgusts me and annoys me.  Annnd that is that.   I heard people arguing about this earlier and it's been bugging me since.  Oh and once again this is My opinion.  I know a lot of people disagree.

Saturday!!!!

It has been 2 freakin years since I've seen my Bff/Sister and this Saturday she is coming down for leave!  I am really stoked for this!  She is probably the one person that I've talked to about every single thing.  It's gonna be good times!  Oh and the Halloween show is Monday Night!!!

Oh my goodness.  I feel like I don't blog enough.  Or like I don't blog like I should.  It gets tough when I can't think of anything to say.  And it sucks because thats how I am.  I am always quiet.  And yeah part of it is due to my awkwardness and shyness...butttt mostly it's  because I really don't have anything to say.  That and I think that when I do have something to say it's not very interesting.  Thats how I've always been.  Now my sisters and girly friends would disagree with that and say that I always talk.  Mostly because they get me.  I feel like even though it can be easy meeting really cool down to earth people, it's still hard meeting people that get me or understand my sense of humor.  I'm trying to be more sociable and it's kind of working.  But sometimes I feel like an outsider.  Like I'm not in on the conversation even when I'm sitting in the middle of it.  So when this happens I awkwardly laugh and say "yeah"...and that's that.  Everytime.  Many have noticed that I am a lady of few words.  What sucks the most is that I want to talk.. I want to say everything on my mind...but once again.. I don't think anyone will care so I get flustered..screw up my words, laugh, and conversation ended.  I plan on changing this!  From now on I am going to push myself to be extremely talkative...not annoyingly talkative but trust me more than I talk now... Sometimes I get tired of people asking me if I ever say anything or If I'm always this shy....nope I'm not.  I really have to be around people that I am extremely comfortable with.. I can be comfortable with alot of people just not on certain levels.  It's kind of hard to explain.  But ohhhh well I guess.... I will try this out tonite at the Deal Me In show at Murphys!!!!!  I just re-read this and realized I just went on and on about how I am quiet... gahhh See THIS is what I mean by it's hard to blog sometimes because you gotta know what you wanna talk about.  More so remembering what you wanted to talk about to begin with and then getting sidetracked.  Thats what happens to me anyhow.  Alright...next subject I guess.  Sorry had to throw this out there but I just had the best sandwich everrrr.. A coworker brought it and it was huuuge! So we split it up and man.  I don't know who made it, but it was devine!  Sorry I had to say it! haha.  You know what I've been really thinking about.  Deleting this blog.  Sometimes it gets so hard to do it.  To make time.  I mean people just think it's a little bit of typing your thoughts...maybe some pictures... but noooo. Heckkkk No!  I wish.  I can't really explain it, but it took me about an hour to just write this.  And I don't even have one solid subject to talk about.  But I told myself I would stick to it... so I am.  Oh yeah.. My BFF/SFAM is coming into town next week!!!! I haven't seen her in 2 years!  And I'm so excited.  She's one person who can talk to me about absolutely everrrrything and I love it.  I'm ready for the BFF time!  Oh and I woke up this morning with an abscess on my tooth.  On the left side on the bottom and it looks and feels like I just got punched square in the jaw.  It sucks so bad.  But taking antibiotics and anti inflammatory's should help.. I hope.  Welllll. I guess this is it.  I have run out of things to say  <3

Burrrr....

Tis cold out thurr!  I love some cold weather though.  I can't stand summer time.  It's too hot.  I see moving to the north in my future where it always feels so nice.  Going to the capgun show tonight with My Love and My Deer.  Should be a good time!  Once I have a drink in me anyways!  I'm doing this because I'm so very bored and I need something to keep me busy.  My blogs about to get personal yall! haha I don't know whats exciting about that statement.  But I decided that I will start putting personal stuff on here...of course nothing too personal.  Oh man who caught the Jersey Shore Finale last night?!  We did and man it was crazy... I loathe Mike... he's such a douche.   An old ugly douche.  Well.... I have nothing else to say... keepin it real.  :]

oh! I've been playing on photoshop like crazy just making different things and I made a flyer for Deal Me In's Halloween show.  I was just messing around but it turned out pretty ok!

Newwww!

So after spending all day getting back into the photoshop groove and a little help from my brother, I finally fixed my blog the way I wanted.....for now anyways.  It's been keeping my mind off of all the stress that surrounds me.  Sometimes I think stress will be the death of me and it's scary.  It just makes me panic and I hate it.  I hate arguing with Tim(my).  And today was just not good.  Hopefully I can find a way to put him in a good mood.  He got called into work and did not want to go.  We only get two days off together - thursday and sunday -.  And he has practice sundays and his show is this sunday as well.  I dunno I just want peace and good things.  It's like no one wants me to be happy sometimes.  On another note tonight is Jersday!  I do love me some Jersey Shore and so does my love.  And the finale is on tonite so I'm excited.  And the office comes on!  I'm still not sure about Andy as the new manager.  I just can't quit Michael Scott.  Ok so Halloween..... I still can't decide what I want to be.  I'm torn between a Raccoon and a Fox...oooor A Merlottes waitress!  Since I heart True Blood.  This happens every year and I always wait until the last minute and come up with something weird.  I'm extremely bored right now waiting for Timothy to get home.  Oooooh!!! I have this idea in my head.  That I don't want to reveal now but soon.  It's so exciting and I really hope and am trying to get this started and see if I can pull it off.  It is a small business.  And I honestly think it's something that can be successful.  I found a couple small vacant buildings for rent in Midtown that would be perfect!  I have everything planned out in my head and now I have the huge task of trying to bring it to life. It's gonna take a lot of time, planning, saving, and praying.  But we will see.

Man..Oh Man

This morning sucked and I  want a re do.  please.   Everything went wrong.  I was late for work which isn't cool since I'm still new.  All I know is I realize now how some people really are.  And I never wanted to listen when someone said it but now I'm listening.  Soooo I've been changing things on here quite a bit recently and that is because I'm making my own layout and template.  It takes time that I have to make room for.  And because I haven't done something like that in a while I have to get back into the swing of things.  So I'm trying out different color schemes to see what I like.  I think I may have found something.  But you guys shall see that soon.  Sooner than later I hope!  Ok so I always use tumblr when I have my phone in my hand.  It's the only thing I'm on.  And it's also a blog of sorts.  It's mostly stuff I don't post on here.. mainly pictures.  So I have also been wondering should I keep a blog or just Tumble.  And I decided I'd keep both.  This is more for the personal stuff I talk about.  The other is just reblogging photos.  I'm all over the place with this post...just like the last one.  I'm just gonna throw out random thoughts and things.  Like for instance I found some purrty pictures I'd like to share.  

Instead of bird feeding, Why not Cat feeding?!!

I desperately need polaroid film

 I adooore this hair color! I wish I could do this myself.

 credit: nicole martines   I looove this and the other pictures she does!

EXACTLY!

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I am so ready to get out on my own.  I don't know how many times I can say that.  But I really am.  Timmy and I both just want to be on our own.  We want to be able to come home to our own place.  It would be a dream.  And I am going to do all that I can to make that happen.  I can taste it!  Once again I am super excited for The 23rd and 25th of this month.  Deal Me In is playing!  And I think releasing their album on cassette finally!  Speaking of that I still need to go thrifting and find a nice cassette player!!  And this sunday is Girl Talk with the bff!  I'm in much need of girl talk and Kayla is just the person I wanna talk to!  Of course we will be chatting and drinking and getting ready for the show so I'm super super ready!!   I must go back to work now!  It's pretty awesome I can do this at work!  I love my job :]

Everyday I'm Tumblin

Forreal!  I've been on Tumblr. for a while and I found so many awesome blogs on their that I follow as many as I can and there is ALLLLWAYS something new and awesome to see.  And I don't really know where else to go with that! haha... If you Tumble then follow me!  Littlefooot.tumblr.com!  I got myself a big girl job!  It's really awesome.  I'm really lucky to have this job.  I've needed a stable source of income for a while so that Tim(my) and I can save up and move out.  We have been looking at a few places and we are very excited but who knows!  But the job is so great.  I really love it!  I'm learning a lot about alcohol.  Oh and I got a laptop finally!  Making this possible!  Big Rhonda finally quit on me.  She was a good one.  Ok ok... so October!  This month has been good to me so far!  It feels and looks amazing outside.  The leaves fall like snow and I adore it!  I gave three of the kittens (minnie, hank, and bill) to new homes.  It was pretty hard.  Anyone who's raised an animal from birth to 6 weeks understands... its sad.  But anyhow they all went to good homes and we decided to keep Gary.... Gary is a girl who we thought was a boy at first.  She's right up there in my header!  She is crazy.  She is really sweet though.  Someone came back into my family's life -sort of-... but that is another post.  Two Deal Me In shows are coming up!!!!  October 23rd and 25th!!!  I'm super excited for those two shows... and I heard the album..and it is amazing.  Seriously I'm at a loss for words.  Knowing how much this means to Tim(my) and hearing him doing something he loves and has such passion about seriously .... see loss for words!  but I am so so sooo happy and excited for Him and the rest of the guys!  I know how much this means to them too and it's just so amazing.  Hearing everything they put into their music coming out of my speakers... it's so exciting.  I'm so ready for everyone to hear it!  It's something I would put on repeat.  Well... the boys are taking sakke shots and I'm going to finish watching Sister Wives...which I am oddly addicted to.  It's so weird that I love it.  Peace yall!

I guess I'll never get it

If you have a problem, something bothering you, anything wrong...tell ME.  Please is all I ask.  You always go to everyone else before me. It kills me.  All I want to do is help make things better and I nevvvver get the chance. I could of sworn that was my job. Just like its your job to do the same to me.  I always always alllllways go to YOU first. Before anybody.  And I'm always the last person if you come to me at all. No matter how much I care and show it. You would rather go to someone else.  That makes me feel like complete crap.  Because its my job to take care of you and vice versa... but you never let me.  And then when you won't let me you tell me I don't care for something you won't let me do.  I don't know what to do anymore.  I guess just wait patiently for the day you finally come to me first. 

Soon

Ill be getting a laptop soon to blog on!  I hate blogging from my phone so until then I won't be on here much.  But soon!!

Wednesday!

At the moment I am creating a new blog header.  I have become rusty with photo and paint shop...but I'm getting the hang of things back.  So until it is finished I am doing a "Wistfull Wednesday"... because Why Not?  

 I wish I was brave enough to do this!

 

Pretty :]

 My button collection will be this pretty one day!

 Makes me want new books so baddd

 mmm..macaroons!

Joshua Radin "I'd rather be with you"

The other video is Eisley's  "Golly Sandra"