Little Foot

Oh my goodness.  I feel like I don't blog enough.  Or like I don't blog like I should.  It gets tough when I can't think of anything to say.  And it sucks because thats how I am.  I am always quiet.  And yeah part of it is due to my awkwardness and shyness...butttt mostly it's  because I really don't have anything to say.  That and I think that when I do have something to say it's not very interesting.  Thats how I've always been.  Now my sisters and girly friends would disagree with that and say that I always talk.  Mostly because they get me.  I feel like even though it can be easy meeting really cool down to earth people, it's still hard meeting people that get me or understand my sense of humor.  I'm trying to be more sociable and it's kind of working.  But sometimes I feel like an outsider.  Like I'm not in on the conversation even when I'm sitting in the middle of it.  So when this happens I awkwardly laugh and say "yeah"...and that's that.  Everytime.  Many have noticed that I am a lady of few words.  What sucks the most is that I want to talk.. I want to say everything on my mind...but once again.. I don't think anyone will care so I get flustered..screw up my words, laugh, and conversation ended.  I plan on changing this!  From now on I am going to push myself to be extremely talkative...not annoyingly talkative but trust me more than I talk now... Sometimes I get tired of people asking me if I ever say anything or If I'm always this shy....nope I'm not.  I really have to be around people that I am extremely comfortable with.. I can be comfortable with alot of people just not on certain levels.  It's kind of hard to explain.  But ohhhh well I guess.... I will try this out tonite at the Deal Me In show at Murphys!!!!!  I just re-read this and realized I just went on and on about how I am quiet... gahhh See THIS is what I mean by it's hard to blog sometimes because you gotta know what you wanna talk about.  More so remembering what you wanted to talk about to begin with and then getting sidetracked.  Thats what happens to me anyhow.  Alright...next subject I guess.  Sorry had to throw this out there but I just had the best sandwich everrrr.. A coworker brought it and it was huuuge! So we split it up and man.  I don't know who made it, but it was devine!  Sorry I had to say it! haha.  You know what I've been really thinking about.  Deleting this blog.  Sometimes it gets so hard to do it.  To make time.  I mean people just think it's a little bit of typing your thoughts...maybe some pictures... but noooo. Heckkkk No!  I wish.  I can't really explain it, but it took me about an hour to just write this.  And I don't even have one solid subject to talk about.  But I told myself I would stick to it... so I am.  Oh yeah.. My BFF/SFAM is coming into town next week!!!! I haven't seen her in 2 years!  And I'm so excited.  She's one person who can talk to me about absolutely everrrrything and I love it.  I'm ready for the BFF time!  Oh and I woke up this morning with an abscess on my tooth.  On the left side on the bottom and it looks and feels like I just got punched square in the jaw.  It sucks so bad.  But taking antibiotics and anti inflammatory's should help.. I hope.  Welllll. I guess this is it.  I have run out of things to say  <3